of synaptic impulses
Sometimes i think i think too little such that my brain doesn't really work after awhile. either that or i think too fast that the thoughts don't exactly sink or register in my head before they are whisked away to some remote corner in the back of my brain. i wonder if anyone has ever felt that before... or am i just weird? most of the time i'd think i am but then i'd discover a few months or years down the road that others actually experience the same things... the curious nature of the human cognity. and my boy would argue that mine doesn't exist.
so enough about that strange i-don't-know-what. somehow i always need something to start my flow of thought (esp if i were to put it down in text) else it doesn't really flow properly. more often than not i think about so so much to say and to blog about, but when i actually sit down and open up the dinky little browser, my thoughts run dry and i end up not writing anything. yes i am often afraid of ranting incessantly without a clear objective (and you can see why now) and boring my readers out there. then again, i haven't decided whether or not this is to be yet another of my private blogs or to make this a public one. its quite a hassle to maintain a proper blog with a nice tagboard and proper skins etc... i'm not sure if i'm up for it yet.
anyways, i'm still sitting in the middle of my holidays... and it has felt that way since like 2 weeks ago cus this holiday is so long and i haven't exactly anything specific to accomplish during this period except for the assortment of little errands to run like buying of things for the new house and helping dwights with his geography. and of course not to forget, looking after the penguin who is growing hopelessly chubby. looks like i'm doing an awfully good job. they should pay me!
talk about pay. i seriously need to find a job. from $2,400 + -----> $300 measly bucks left in my savings account T___T how utterly sad is that. and dearie and i went window shopping today (not really intended but he wanted to get his bangers and mash so we WALKED all the way to balmoral plaza for a bite at Waffle House, ironically not for waffles but for burgers, and then to far east.... which is .... faaaar. and i realized today that newton mrt station is actually VERY near to Orchard Road) So, back to window shopping... the clothes and accessories, ear-rings in particular, are so pretty and tempting... i've got a mental list of things i want to buy. but then again everyone knows i never get down to actually spending that money on myself cus i'm very much a miser when it comes to me... plus the nagging fact that i have only $300 left in my poor poor account... the feeling kinda eats you up. this sad sad pitiful *whine* i-can't-afford-those-pretty-things feeling. bahh. so yes, that about sums up why i need to find a job.
so many many many pretty things! and just to sate my yearnings, i shall make a tiny list of them here so that perhaps i may sleep better tonight by getting them out of my head...
1. nice earrings. i never get enough of them!
2. pretty skirts
3. and tops (the 2-in-1 piece kinds and the off shoulder kinds)
4. lingerie, proper.lingerie.
5. dresses! now who wears dresses at this age! o wells i'm growing old.
6. hats! aish the $1.90 hat! (yes they're selling these cute hats at only $1.90 at Dhoby Exchange!!)
7. a proper pair of walking sandal's slippers... (since i got caught in the rain early this month, mine have gone kinda soggy and puffy... T_T)
8. i lost my bikini
9. how bout those pretty pretty accessories for hair, hands, neck... everywhere!
haha. i seriously think i'm turning into a tai-tai. this is bad. i'm becoming a girl. never used to drool so much after all these attractive things. yes i'm almost always in those berms and big huge t-shirts that are recycled every other day. i'm 19 but people take me for a pri-5 kid. how sad is that. sighs. but its not that i don't want to dress well.... it just.... takes so much effort to. for one, i'd need to be able to afford the clothes. then its the hair and the tedious process of removing em. (if you've seen my leg hair you'll understand). then its the accesorizing.... time-consuming but always worth the while.
doing it halfway, however, has never been my style. so its either dress totally for comfort, or really make it look good. it usually falls under the former, sadly.
i aspire to revamp my wardrobe. (: and look presentable everyday. by presentable, i mean stylish. don't burst my bubble. i can and will achieve it. some day. when God so decides He will provide more to allow that.
I know my God is faithful. and yes! my house is almost ready! we're moving in next month! how exciting! Apart from the fact that my room is blue and yellow. think CANDY blue and yellow. quite strange indeed. but the hall looks pretty good. lime green and pale yellow. to think the some fellow in the neighbouring block tried to copy us by painting similar colours! haha~ mum's sense of colours is honestly quite brilliant. i just find the lights a tad too bright. but its all good. (: Praise God for my uncle who helped us to do up almost everything! and Praise God no one really blamed me for killing the main door.... eeks. ask me if you want to know more about how i cleverly locked 4 of us inside the new house. meeps.
so there. and each time i blog, its such a long entry. either that, or i don't blog. oh wells. i need more consistency in my life. till then. you'll have to make do with this~ (:
so enough about that strange i-don't-know-what. somehow i always need something to start my flow of thought (esp if i were to put it down in text) else it doesn't really flow properly. more often than not i think about so so much to say and to blog about, but when i actually sit down and open up the dinky little browser, my thoughts run dry and i end up not writing anything. yes i am often afraid of ranting incessantly without a clear objective (and you can see why now) and boring my readers out there. then again, i haven't decided whether or not this is to be yet another of my private blogs or to make this a public one. its quite a hassle to maintain a proper blog with a nice tagboard and proper skins etc... i'm not sure if i'm up for it yet.
anyways, i'm still sitting in the middle of my holidays... and it has felt that way since like 2 weeks ago cus this holiday is so long and i haven't exactly anything specific to accomplish during this period except for the assortment of little errands to run like buying of things for the new house and helping dwights with his geography. and of course not to forget, looking after the penguin who is growing hopelessly chubby. looks like i'm doing an awfully good job. they should pay me!
talk about pay. i seriously need to find a job. from $2,400 + -----> $300 measly bucks left in my savings account T___T how utterly sad is that. and dearie and i went window shopping today (not really intended but he wanted to get his bangers and mash so we WALKED all the way to balmoral plaza for a bite at Waffle House, ironically not for waffles but for burgers, and then to far east.... which is .... faaaar. and i realized today that newton mrt station is actually VERY near to Orchard Road) So, back to window shopping... the clothes and accessories, ear-rings in particular, are so pretty and tempting... i've got a mental list of things i want to buy. but then again everyone knows i never get down to actually spending that money on myself cus i'm very much a miser when it comes to me... plus the nagging fact that i have only $300 left in my poor poor account... the feeling kinda eats you up. this sad sad pitiful *whine* i-can't-afford-those-pretty-things feeling. bahh. so yes, that about sums up why i need to find a job.
so many many many pretty things! and just to sate my yearnings, i shall make a tiny list of them here so that perhaps i may sleep better tonight by getting them out of my head...
1. nice earrings. i never get enough of them!
2. pretty skirts
3. and tops (the 2-in-1 piece kinds and the off shoulder kinds)
4. lingerie, proper.lingerie.
5. dresses! now who wears dresses at this age! o wells i'm growing old.
6. hats! aish the $1.90 hat! (yes they're selling these cute hats at only $1.90 at Dhoby Exchange!!)
7. a proper pair of walking sandal's slippers... (since i got caught in the rain early this month, mine have gone kinda soggy and puffy... T_T)
8. i lost my bikini
9. how bout those pretty pretty accessories for hair, hands, neck... everywhere!
haha. i seriously think i'm turning into a tai-tai. this is bad. i'm becoming a girl. never used to drool so much after all these attractive things. yes i'm almost always in those berms and big huge t-shirts that are recycled every other day. i'm 19 but people take me for a pri-5 kid. how sad is that. sighs. but its not that i don't want to dress well.... it just.... takes so much effort to. for one, i'd need to be able to afford the clothes. then its the hair and the tedious process of removing em. (if you've seen my leg hair you'll understand). then its the accesorizing.... time-consuming but always worth the while.
doing it halfway, however, has never been my style. so its either dress totally for comfort, or really make it look good. it usually falls under the former, sadly.
i aspire to revamp my wardrobe. (: and look presentable everyday. by presentable, i mean stylish. don't burst my bubble. i can and will achieve it. some day. when God so decides He will provide more to allow that.
I know my God is faithful. and yes! my house is almost ready! we're moving in next month! how exciting! Apart from the fact that my room is blue and yellow. think CANDY blue and yellow. quite strange indeed. but the hall looks pretty good. lime green and pale yellow. to think the some fellow in the neighbouring block tried to copy us by painting similar colours! haha~ mum's sense of colours is honestly quite brilliant. i just find the lights a tad too bright. but its all good. (: Praise God for my uncle who helped us to do up almost everything! and Praise God no one really blamed me for killing the main door.... eeks. ask me if you want to know more about how i cleverly locked 4 of us inside the new house. meeps.
so there. and each time i blog, its such a long entry. either that, or i don't blog. oh wells. i need more consistency in my life. till then. you'll have to make do with this~ (:
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